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This afternoon, I was quite shocked but in the same time I feel so grateful and blessed. Having opened my profile in my facebook page, I notice that one of my friend tagged me in a photo when I was a little child. I think it was when I was 9 or 10 years old. In that photo, I was joining a competition on bible stories in a group of three people. We were in the second place and in the photo you saw me receiving the prize. And now, I’m a a Sunday school teacher in my local church. Somehow, having seen that picture, I also want to spread the joy of being a son of God and how Sunday school has affected my life this far through knowing of the words of God since I was kid.

Maggie and Nada

They are so inspiring. It’s the proof that friendship is unlimited, intercontinental. Having seen how tight the relation between them really creates a heart burning for us. Although language they differ in but they to have the same darling language.

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1) I had a nightmare. I kept loosing my money and the winds blew them out. From that dream, I concluded that if in this life I may not make money as the centre of everything. In the morning when I woke up, I was so afraid.

2) Today is so blue, reluctant, and harsh.

3) I have quite a number of invitations for the Chinese New Year Dinner, i.e. two steamboats, one dinner at restaurant. How should I choose? Should I choose the one without paying any single dolar? If the scenario is like that, steamboat with Sunday school teachers is perhaps the answer =)

4) Many people want to go to Japan with S$ 1500 for three weeks. FYI, I also want to, but I think three MT teams will be tiring.

5) What happened this morning during Sunday school proved that having sister/brother is a kind of disaster for them now.

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1) I wonder how Indonesians can be so creative. I’m think there are two reasons. The first reason is that plenty of time is easily found. The second reason is that many uncomfortable conditions should be faced and somehow they should find a way to solve.

2) Cell phone represents the owner. If mine is SE K750i, it shows that the owner is just ordinary, nothing special at least for now. This was quote of the last two days said by my friend.

3) More people are talking about meritocracy nowadays. I often heard how a student in Singapore excels in both academic and ECA. But, I think not everyone can do it. So, how miserable you are if you force yourself to excel in everything but you lose everything in the end?

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1) I just enjoyed Petra Christian University Choir concert in Orchard Road Presbyterian Church and I found it was awesome. It seemed that they had practiced a lot. I think that choir was two times better than NTU choir.

2) Suddenly I’m so reluctant on teaching in Singapore. This impulsiveness really surrounds me. Honestly, I myself don’t know whether I can teach or not. Moreover, it’s Singapore whose students are so challenging and somehow they don’t respect the teachers as Indonesian children do. I have no enough courage for teaching in Singapore. I was thinking on just doing research or engineering work after graduation.

3) Now, I’m considering on going to Phnom Penh-Siem Reap for the third mission trip. But, I think the probability of joining is only 5% for now =)

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Some friends have already said “it’s okay” to be a Singaporean. Well, I’m not in the position of judging someone and saying whether it’s right or wrong. Perhaps, we don’t stand on those persons’ shoes so we don’t understand how their conditions somehow. If the condition is that there’s no security in Indonesia, no opportunity, no life, so many limitations and discriminations or born in a particular country outside Indonesia, I think it’s understandable to change the nationality. The example was just now. I saw a picture showed some medalists of US Teams for IChO and IPhO and some of them are ABC. But, I’m pretty sure that by the time they talk, we can’t differentiate them with any Americans. Contrarily, I think if those persons are so “Indonesian” which means the daily language used, moral values, and the appearance are so “Indonesian, it’s not wise to change the nationality. Moreover, if the consideration is merely because of more opportunity and more salaries offered by other country. What I believe is that if we are born in a particular country, there’s something that actually we should in that country

Hm…that’s why some persons prefer to say that they are the residents of the world.

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1) I am shortlisted for an interview on March 2nd for the teaching position as the secondary school teacher via NTU Talent Site. But, I am not shortlisted for Finisar, Marvel, and Micron, and the status of DSI, DSTA, and Meltwater application was pending. However, DSTA was only for Singaporean and it means I can only hope DSI and Meltwater. For the teaching position, I actually applied via both Talent Site and MOE website. I’ll ask on Monday which one I should actually be. I think that they detected my two applications and I better go for NTU interview on March. Well, I should ask Pras’ help to teach me in answering their questions. Thank God for this =)

2) I was quite disappointed with my “small heaven” because I think day by day they are getting closer but forgetting and perhaps disregarding about how they should lighten and brighten the world outside there.

3) I should rush up my reports, my experiments, my tasks.

4) I’ve found the way to exchange my coins, i.e. vending machine : press the button to cancel and your coins will change into a single yellow shiny one dolar coin =)

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I just realized that many Indonesians have lower standard of ethics recently. The proof is the SiBuYa Buffalo and how the word “maling” was yelled to the minister of finance.

One of my senior high school friend said how he was also dissapointed how the Indonesians only cared about the unimportant things instead of gearing up to build this country by research development and technological innovation.

Sebuah peribahasa Cina mengatakan bahwa jika dalam hidup ini ada seorang sahabat saja, mati sekarang pun juga tak mengapa.

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An afternoon talk with a Vietnamese girl whom I knew since I was in the first year.

H : So, what do you think about studying in Singapore?
S : Huh? Why do you suddenly ask that?
H : I remember when I met you when we were in the first year.
S : Ermm…I think studying in Singapore is something that we should be grateful for. How about you?
H : I’m bored. It’s not like what I expected few years ago.
S : That’s why we should travel overseas !
H : I’ve travelled a lot.
S : That’s good.

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More and more people including me are getting worried about the job after graduation and the acuteness level increases. Moreover, my final year project seems to have more problems and challenges.

on ICN

The euphoria was still in its max few hours ago though many hours have passed. Recently the talk was with Carlo and of course we talked about his magnificent performance (according to himself). Yes, it was about Indonesian Cultural Night 2010 of NTU students and the event was held in NTU. Despite of the sound system problems, technicalities, and those kinds of thing, I did enjoy the show and I was trying to put myself on the directors’ shoes. I was sure they were so stressful. But I think now is the part where the audiences should participate on, which is by seeing the performance as a whole and trying to be disturbed by the hiccups created during the show. Let’s respect them and all of their efforts in that long long weeks they’d spent. To close this writing, I have enlisted some notes (critics, perhaps):

1 ) The storyline was still about moving to many different parts of Indonesia. It resembled the first ICN two years ago. Some of the audiences said so. But, it was still worth watching.
2 ) How if the audiences were Australians? What will they think about their country then?
3 ) I think Ben has made the drama alive. His message on the ending was cool.
4 ) Alice kept saying “beautiful, pretty, and that kind of thing”.
5 ) Alice’s gown so pretty and so girly. Like it.
6 ) Why should there be poems?
7 ) Saman Dance was cool and was modernized. Like it so much.
8 ) Carlo was good in overcoming the technical problems on stage using his own style. Impressed. But, he sang the first bars of the songs too “lebay”.
9 ) I was jealous with Mike, Alice, and Ben. My good friends seem to be one-to-one and they are not related. At least I never gaze the stars at night with more than 2 persons.
10 ) The closing was awesome. Four thumbs up for the stage directors.

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-still in Sunday school mode- During class, most of them really hate their sisters or brothers because of envy, jealousy, and naughtiness and such. Let’s wait couple years later when they should go and be separated from family for school or work. Once again, I think they will regret because of the bad relationship when they were kid.

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It was the first Sunday school session after graduation day last week and most of them started to join the higher class. I led the worship session this morning and I noticed that they made two poles, boys and girls. The same thing happened in class. Let’s wait few years later till they’ll find so difficult to find a life partner , I think they will regret that they had done such thing.

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I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

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This is the first time that I’m so thankful that I can have a chance to study in NTU, Singapore. I always thought that NTU was a nightmare for me, at least for the last three years.

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I prayed that He gave me such an inspirational dream yesterday, but it happened that my beloved friend in Indonesia dreamed about me and she said that she missed me so much. That person is the one I always pray for.

I notice how “the small heaven” keeps on turning on their lamps. They are getting closer but the light is only stacked there. I think they should make a move and spread the light to the darkness.

This night is another sleepless night. This is the time to finish all things and I just realized all of them being so crappy. I think I should reduce my activities and should focus on my final year project. I think that I should stop my violin class. I feel so sad, but I should not complain.

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I was alone in 165 bus which brought me from Upper Thomson to Clementi Road. In the same time, I was amazed how God was so creative in answering all of my questions recently. He answered them in a miraculous way and somehow I never thought about the particular answers which came out. And from now on, there’s no need for me to be afraid and there’s no reason for me to be anxious.

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I am proud to be an impulsive person, and I just realized that my life is so colourful due to that impulsiveness.

Septian is full of paradoxes. He likes being alone yet he does not like being alone. He likes to dwell in deep thoughts yet he is quite impulsive at times. He likes to explore new things and places yet he is at home with his tradition too. A good friend, indeed, who really cherish his friends – served better with coffee at TCC. (Septian)

Septian anaknya demen nyanyi pake gaya lebay, sastra Indonesia nya bagus, dan punya kreativitas tinggi. Tapi dia itu anaknya suka impulsif, kadang2 susah keluar dr comfort zone n cukup unpredictable. Temen yang baik bgt, perhatian, royal klo traktir, and he really goes for quality over quantity when it comes to friendship. (Adhi)

Unique javanese boys who try to find about himself in the fast paced Singapore life. Melancholic, yet don’t want to be one although that thought is the proof of his melancholicity. Insensitive and too straighforward sometimes although with a good purpose. (Olivia)